when you sing along..

Don’t want much, I just want everything
Thought that I could, do almost anything
One step in front of the other
Thought that I could do it alone

In the blink of an eye, it's just another day
Telling me why, I'll find another way
Got this feeling, got me reeling
I can almost start believing

Now there's me and you
And we are not alone
You and me
We are together now
Through my window, I can see there's
More than you and more than me
Me and you
And we are not alone
Different view
We are together now
Through my window, I can see
Our wildest dreams could be so real

I see a spark, it starts a fire
Is this the one worth waiting for?
Thought that I could do it without you
Can’t exist like this anymore

So there's me and you!

its 3 in the morning now, and the connection's just not there anymore. it feels like the missing part, the hollow part of life has stopped beating once and for all. its not that's it giving up, it still aches from time to time. but the truth is, the pieces cant always be put back together all the time cant they? how do u really mend such a fragile thing? and what about the bigger part of things, the part which holds everything together. how do u fix that? may be, just may be, it isnt all about fixing.

hate is such a powerful thing. it consumes the mind and plays with the heart. but how do u really hate? and when do u know u've stop to hate? the smallest of things which surround you speaks at times like this. when ur whole world is spinning, and the grounds all shacking, where consiousness is taken over by hate. what do you do? do u put the paddle to the metal and drive it all out? or do u let the rage take over the wheel? where it eats u out deep down inside. the deeper the softer they say. cause the core is where salvation lies. may be we just need to reach deep down inside, and save that one soul. even if we risk it all.

what happends when you dont see the glow anymore? when u dont have all the answers in life? some say we wait for time to past, as time never fails to tell. but does it always? in a perfect world, people go on day by day, nite by nite. some stop and feel the breeze whilst others just cant be bothered. so they say most are happier to see u down, than round and about. we were always told that our eyes are the windows of our soul. why is it so hard to see through certain times? the future seems more distant away. further out of reach that the average can.

everyone says that tomorrow is another day. but everyday is another day. what can we look forward to in these hazy, uncertain dates. just the taste of bitter sweet, from the ends meet we sort from. then there's the empty hearts. where it binds our main existence. of wanting more and more, raising greed of its original forms. where will power no longer joggles the mind. where preceptions are set based on pure wants, merely needs.

the chase for perfection undoubtly. closes the mind and body. rejects acceptance, and judges quickly. till comes the fall where no man can stand against. crumbling into pure misery of failure at first. then second forms an opinion on reality, where pain suggests non the less. by such torture it is to life. to trade every last memory with the past.

chains of words bind who we are and where we be. though. where are u? i will wait. eager but calmly. i wait.

Since when do you come around?
And the temperature's changed, nothing's the same
Left me, in yesterday
You don't see me that way, touched me that way, no more
When you get so cold, I'm not sure just how much longer I can hold

You got me standin' at the bottom of this mountain that we've made
And the ground is shakin' from all of our mistakes
But there's no one, but then the ice is in our way
It's a matter of time, We can rewind

If only you knew, Why my heart goes through for you
I'm tryna break through, Don't you think it's worth the chance?
Let's leave the past, Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand?
Can we pull through this avalanche?

We see what's up ahead, Why do we stay? Watchin' us fadin'
Trapped in, by regret
There's no way out, and there's no way in
And it's so cold, I'm not sure just how much longer I can hold

The bond is breaking, and it's taking over, my spirit (quickly, quickly)
Something's shifted, have we drifted too far, apart now?

Marie Digby - Avalanche

When I was young I knew everything
And she a punk who rarely ever took advice
Now I'm guilt stricken, sobbin' with my head on the floor
Stop a Baby's Breath and a shoe full of rice, no...

I can't be held responsible
'Cause she was touching her face
I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and we'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe we'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen

My best friend took a week's vacation to forget her
His girl took a week's worth of valium and slept
And now he's guilt stricken sobbin' with his head on the floor
Thinks about her now and how he never really wept he says

I can't be held responsible
'Cause she was touching her face
I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and we'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe we'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

brings back memories. sniff*

realise = reality + i see

Sometimes its just much easier to say than do, or maybe most of the time.
Procrastination becomes a habbit or even a part of some people's life.
That single decision to delay a decision changes everything.
And at times, our fate changes.
Those "could have been"s and those "what if"s always come up.
And so it sounds like an excuse.
An excuse which is made up so selfishly, Just to cover up a mistake.
But does fate decide where, when and who we are.

I refuse.
I refuse to be a slave of hypocrisy.
I refuse to give in to a set of mind which determines who i am or who i will be.
I want to be spontaneous.
I want to be unpredictable.
I want to soar and reach the sky.
I want to make believe the unbelievable.
I want to reach the impossible.
I want to-want to.

yawn*

I'll start tomorrow!
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Do you know where your heart is?
Do you think you can find it?
Or did you trade it for something
Somewhere better just to have it?
Do you know where your love is?
Do you think that you lost it?
You felt it so strong, but
Nothing's turned out how you wanted

Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold

Well, all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

Do you know what your fate is?
And are you trying to shake it?
You're doing your best and
Your best look
You're praying that you make it

Whenever the end is
Do you think you can see it?
Well, until you get there
Go on, go ahead and scream it
Just say it