pardon me?

when you sing along..

2009-11-20T07:20:00.000-08:00

Don’t want much, I just want everything
Thought that I could, do almost anything
One step in front of the other
Thought that I could do it alone

In the blink of an eye, it's just another day
Telling me why, I'll find another way
Got this feeling, got me reeling
I can almost start believing

Now there's me and you
And we are not alone
You and me
We are together now
Through my window, I can see there's
More than you and more than me
Me and you
And we are not alone
Different view
We are together now
Through my window, I can see
Our wildest dreams could be so real

I see a spark, it starts a fire
Is this the one worth waiting for?
Thought that I could do it without you
Can’t exist like this anymore

So there's me and you!

2009-11-19T10:58:00.000-08:00

its 3 in the morning now, and the connection's just not there anymore. it feels like the missing part, the hollow part of life has stopped beating once and for all. its not that's it giving up, it still aches from time to time. but the truth is, the pieces cant always be put back together all the time cant they? how do u really mend such a fragile thing? and what about the bigger part of things, the part which holds everything together. how do u fix that? may be, just may be, it isnt all about fixing.

hate is such a powerful thing. it consumes the mind and plays with the heart. but how do u really hate? and when do u know u've stop to hate? the smallest of things which surround you speaks at times like this. when ur whole world is spinning, and the grounds all shacking, where consiousness is taken over by hate. what do you do? do u put the paddle to the metal and drive it all out? or do u let the rage take over the wheel? where it eats u out deep down inside. the deeper the softer they say. cause the core is where salvation lies. may be we just need to reach deep down inside, and save that one soul. even if we risk it all.

what happends when you dont see the glow anymore? when u dont have all the answers in life? some say we wait for time to past, as time never fails to tell. but does it always? in a perfect world, people go on day by day, nite by nite. some stop and feel the breeze whilst others just cant be bothered. so they say most are happier to see u down, than round and about. we were always told that our eyes are the windows of our soul. why is it so hard to see through certain times? the future seems more distant away. further out of reach that the average can.

everyone says that tomorrow is another day. but everyday is another day. what can we look forward to in these hazy, uncertain dates. just the taste of bitter sweet, from the ends meet we sort from. then there's the empty hearts. where it binds our main existence. of wanting more and more, raising greed of its original forms. where will power no longer joggles the mind. where preceptions are set based on pure wants, merely needs.

the chase for perfection undoubtly. closes the mind and body. rejects acceptance, and judges quickly. till comes the fall where no man can stand against. crumbling into pure misery of failure at first. then second forms an opinion on reality, where pain suggests non the less. by such torture it is to life. to trade every last memory with the past.

chains of words bind who we are and where we be. though. where are u? i will wait. eager but calmly. i wait.

2009-09-27T11:57:00.000-07:00

Since when do you come around?
And the temperature's changed, nothing's the same
Left me, in yesterday
You don't see me that way, touched me that way, no more
When you get so cold, I'm not sure just how much longer I can hold

You got me standin' at the bottom of this mountain that we've made
And the ground is shakin' from all of our mistakes
But there's no one, but then the ice is in our way
It's a matter of time, We can rewind

If only you knew, Why my heart goes through for you
I'm tryna break through, Don't you think it's worth the chance?
Let's leave the past, Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand?
Can we pull through this avalanche?

We see what's up ahead, Why do we stay? Watchin' us fadin'
Trapped in, by regret
There's no way out, and there's no way in
And it's so cold, I'm not sure just how much longer I can hold

The bond is breaking, and it's taking over, my spirit (quickly, quickly)
Something's shifted, have we drifted too far, apart now?

Marie Digby - Avalanche

2009-07-15T03:46:00.001-07:00

When I was young I knew everything
And she a punk who rarely ever took advice
Now I'm guilt stricken, sobbin' with my head on the floor
Stop a Baby's Breath and a shoe full of rice, no...

I can't be held responsible
'Cause she was touching her face
I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and we'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe we'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen

My best friend took a week's vacation to forget her
His girl took a week's worth of valium and slept
And now he's guilt stricken sobbin' with his head on the floor
Thinks about her now and how he never really wept he says

I can't be held responsible
'Cause she was touching her face
I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and we'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe we'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen

2009-04-16T09:22:00.001-07:00

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

2009-02-18T16:42:00.001-08:00

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

brings back memories. sniff*

2009-02-14T19:10:00.000-08:00

realise = reality + i see

Sometimes its just much easier to say than do, or maybe most of the time.
Procrastination becomes a habbit or even a part of some people's life.
That single decision to delay a decision changes everything.
And at times, our fate changes.
Those "could have been"s and those "what if"s always come up.
And so it sounds like an excuse.
An excuse which is made up so selfishly, Just to cover up a mistake.
But does fate decide where, when and who we are.

I refuse.
I refuse to be a slave of hypocrisy.
I refuse to give in to a set of mind which determines who i am or who i will be.
I want to be spontaneous.
I want to be unpredictable.
I want to soar and reach the sky.
I want to make believe the unbelievable.
I want to reach the impossible.
I want to-want to.

yawn*

I'll start tomorrow!
___________________________________

Do you know where your heart is?
Do you think you can find it?
Or did you trade it for something
Somewhere better just to have it?
Do you know where your love is?
Do you think that you lost it?
You felt it so strong, but
Nothing's turned out how you wanted

Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold

Well, all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

Do you know what your fate is?
And are you trying to shake it?
You're doing your best and
Your best look
You're praying that you make it

Whenever the end is
Do you think you can see it?
Well, until you get there
Go on, go ahead and scream it
Just say it

2009-01-15T14:39:00.000-08:00

HOw loNg dO we pAY FoR oUr mIsTAKeS?

2009-01-11T17:57:00.000-08:00

things i've learnt

i've learnt that, love needs space.
Which is important.

i've learnt that, love is patient.
Just like the hot afternoons with the ice cold drinks.

i've learnt that, love is timeless.
Where time is the key.

i've learnt that, love requires maturity.
How naive were we?

i've learnt that, love lasts always and forever.
Like diamonds, a girl's best friend.

i've learnt that, love is where the heart is.
And there's no where like home.

i've learnt that, love is worth the effort.
The distance we go.

i've learnt that, love.
How blinded i am by it.

2008-10-26T11:48:00.000-07:00

i've reached so many cross roads before
some so simple
some so complicated
some so intriguing
some so complete
some so broken
some so empty
some so joyful
some so respected
some so unknown
some so mysterious
above all
there's always something
just that something
that exists
forming this goal
this goal to choose
a path
one which is right
one which will not be regretted
one which will (hopefully) be rewarding
but standing at the edge of that chosen path
you tend to wonder
would have the other been better?
would have the other been safer?
would have the other been...
been a better choice
i guess
its a risk we gotta take sometimes
its something we long for at times
its something we're willing to dive in whole heartedly for
its something which cant be explain
binded by fear
binded by ego
binded by love
binded by so many other things
so the story goes
it never ends
one cross road after another.

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move,
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,
Some try to hand me money they don't understand,
I'm not...broke I'm just a broken hearted man,
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Policeman says son you can't stay here,
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.

People talk about the guy
Who's waiting on a girl...
There are no holes in his shoes
But a big hole in his world...

2008-09-06T11:41:00.000-07:00

what about now

Now that we're here,

Now that we've come this far,

Just hold on.

There is nothing to fear,

For I am right beside you.

For all my life,

I am yours.

2008-08-30T13:34:00.000-07:00

i need answers.
i need help.
i need you.
where are you?

2008-08-16T01:00:00.000-07:00

as i lay my discontented head low
i pray.
seeing is believing they say
of what have i not seen yet
which should not be seen.
murmuring of words can be heard a far
as comments swirl to show who they are.
but who shall change how I think
for what has done cannot be change
neither affix or tried to saved.
shall I continue to ponder upon
a mystery
a lie
which can never be told.
as the clock strikes it gives a ring
of acknowledgement of times to come
a road of unknown it seems so blur
but it is a road I must conquer.
as I lift myself with all my strength
in my head one thought stands
with hope and love
for good things to come
I am sure I will overcome.

Just turn 21.

Thanks guys :)

2008-08-11T04:04:00.000-07:00

when u've got everything,
what do u have?

2008-07-24T10:40:00.000-07:00

Take time to realize,
That your warmth is. Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
and will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.

Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
didn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by.. Didn't I tell you

It's not always the same
no it's never the same
if you don't feel it to.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.

missed out on each other now

2008-07-23T13:34:00.000-07:00

And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
Cuz I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
And designer love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

And it's someplace simple where we could live
And something only you can give
And thats faith and trust and peace while we're alive
And the one poor child that saved this world
And there's 10 million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this endless fight
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

all i want are better days.

2008-07-14T17:41:00.000-07:00

I, take you,
to be mine,
to have and to hold from this day forward,
for better or for worse,
for richer,
for poorer,
in sickness and in health,
to love and to cherish;
from this day forward
until death
do us
part.

Cheers~
Ling and Danny
Best Regards
And
Lots of Love,
Aric

2008-06-05T11:25:00.000-07:00

now free,

Free as a bird to settle where i will.

What dwelling shall receive me?

in what vale shall be my harbour?

underneath what grove shall i take up my home?

and what clear stream, shall with its murmur lull me into rest?

The earth is all before me.

will a heart, Joyous, Nor scared at its own liberty,

i look about;

and should the chosen guide,

be nothing better than a wandering cloud,

i cannot miss my way.

2008-05-10T17:16:00.000-07:00

This boy wants to play,
There's no time left today,
It's a shame 'cause he has to go home.

This boy's got to work
Got to sweat just to pay what he gets to get left all alone.

Well let's step outside,
Let's go for a ride,
Just for a while.
No we won't get caught,
Well that's what I thought, until we cry.

I'm still here,
But it hasn't been easy,
I'm sure that you had your reasons,
I'm scared for this emotion,
For years I've been holding it down,
For years I've been holding it down.

This girl tries her best everyday,
But it's all gone to waste 'cause there's no one around,
This girl she can draw she can paint,
Likes to dance she can skate,
Now she don't make a sound.

We'll play in our park,
'Till it's too dark for us to see
Well we'll make our way home,
With mud on our clothes,
She won't be pleased.

I'm still here,
But it hasn't been easy,
I'm sure that you had your reasons,
I'm scared for this emotion,
For years I've been holding it down,

And I,
Love to forgive and forget,
So I,
Try to put all this behind us,
Just,
Know that my arms are wide open,
The older I get, the more that I know.

Well it's time to let this go.

2008-05-06T11:09:00.000-07:00

If I were to wish for anything,

I should not wish for wealth and power,

but for the passionate sense of the potential,

for the eye which,

ever young and ardent,

sees the possible.

Pleasure and disappointments.

Even so,

you ask me what I really want this year.

And I try to make this kind and clear.

Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days.

Cuz I don't need boxes wrapped in strings,

and desire and love and empty things.

Just a chance that

maybe

we'll find better days.

2008-04-30T11:59:00.000-07:00

Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone sins
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)

When everything is wrong we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along, along, along

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
[x3]

(Move along)
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along

the used and found.
i will
i must
move on.

2008-04-29T17:34:00.000-07:00

well I don't wanna be the blame, not anymore.
It's your turn, so take a seat we're settling the final score.
And why do we like to hurt, so much?

I can't decide
You have made it harder just to go on
And why?
All the possibilities...
Well I was wrong

That's what you get when you let your heart win. Whoa!
That's what you get when you let your heart win. Whoa...
I drown out all my sense with the sound of its beating.
And that's what you get when you let your heart win. Whoa.

I wonder, how am I supposed to feel when you're not here.
'Cause I burned every bridge I ever built when you were here.
I still try... holding onto silly things, I never learn.
Oh why? All the possibilities. I'm sure you've heard.

That's what you get when you let your heart win. Whoa!
That's what you get when you let your heart win. Whoa..
I drown out all my sense with the sound of its beating.
And that's what you get when you let your heart win. Whoa.

They, make your way to me. (to me)
And I'll always be just so inviting.
If I ever start to think straight,
This heart will start a riot in me,
Let's start... Start, hey!

Why do we like to hurt so much?
Oh why do we like to her so much?

That's what you get when you let your heart win!
Whoa.

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

Now I can't trust myself with anything but this,
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

i can however assure you with all the dignity i have left that everything was a lie.

2008-04-25T16:10:00.000-07:00

Hypothetically, there's W, S, Q, L, O, F, J, B and L.
W was in a relationship with S for some time. And then they broke up. Later W was with Q, and S had L. After a while, things didn't work out, and so it ended for both parties.
W stayed close with S. Later, W met O, and S met F. They dated a little, but they stop seeing each other after a while. So, W was still close to S.
W tried to make things work with S, but S was too hurt about the past, so it was said that things would take time. Then, S met J, B and L.
S is currently seeing J, and maybe possibly also B and L. W feels all alone, and regretful of his past doings. Trying hard to make it up to S, but W's such acts of trying to right a wrong isn't and haven't been working at all, all this while.
W feels that there is still a possibility of things working out with S, but is constantly heart broken with the fact that S isn't the same as before.
W seeks your advice on the current dilemma, on whether W should stick around and wait, or should W move on.
Comments Appreciated.

2008-04-24T17:11:00.000-07:00

When I was young I knew everything
She a punk who rarely ever took advice
Now I'm guilt stricken,
Sobbing with my head on the floor
Stop a baby's breath and a shoe full of rice

I can't be held responsible
She was touching her face
I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and
We'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe
We'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen

My best friend took a week's
Vacation to forget her
His girl took a weeks's worth of
Valium and slept
And now he's guilt stricken sobbing with his
Head on the floor
Thinks about her now and how he never really
Wept he says

I can't be held responsible
She was touching her face
I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and
We'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe
We'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen

hey yeah
hey yeah
hey yeah

We've tried to wash our hands of all this
We never talk of our lacking relationships
And how we're guilt stricken sobbing with our
Heads on the floor
We fell through the ice when we tried not to
Slip, we'd say

I can't be held responsible
She was touching her face
And I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and
We'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe
We'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and
We'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe
We'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen
We were merely freshmen

2008-04-23T19:38:00.000-07:00

this just in -

there's a point in life
when,
you get tired of
chasing everyone
and
trying to fix everything.
But,
its not giving up.
Its realizing
that,
you don't need certain people.

how true.

2008-04-22T16:57:00.000-07:00

Responsible/Responsibility

1.	answerable or accountable, as for something within one's power, control, or management.

2.	involving accountability or responsibility.

3.	chargeable with being the author, cause, or occasion of something.

4.	having a capacity for moral decisions and therefore accountable; capable of rational thought or action.

5.	able to discharge obligations or pay debts.

6.	reliable or dependable, as in meeting debts, conducting business dealings, etc.

Theres always 2 side of a coin.
and
theres always only 2 possible outcomes.
u see,
its not the outcome which matters the most,
but the fact that u decide to do so,
by flipping the coin in the first place.
for whatever reason which
u decided to flip the coin in the first place,
its the motion of you doing so,
that shows that,
you are willing to give everything
for that longed for outcome
or
anything which comes.
because you knew
at the start of it all,
you were taking a chance.
that
my friend,
is called
responsibility.

2008-04-21T15:34:00.000-07:00

lying,
keeping things on an even scale.

who said words are merely words.

2008-04-19T13:01:00.000-07:00

Patients

Bearing or enduring pain, difficulty, provocation, or annoyance with calmness.
Marked by or exhibiting calm endurance of pain, difficulty, provocation, or annoyance.
Tolerant; understanding.
Persevering; constant.
Capable of calmly awaiting an outcome or result; not hasty or impulsive.
Capable of bearing or enduring pain, difficulty, provocation, or annoyance.

Dont. Bother.

2008-04-17T14:03:00.000-07:00

And here we go again
With all the things we said
And not a minute spent
To think that we'd regret
So we just take it back,
These words and hold our breath
Forget the things we swore we meant

I'll write you just to let you know that I'm alright
Can't say I'm sad to see you go
Cause I'm not. (No I'm not)
Well, I'm not.

And here we go again
With all the things we did
And now I'm wondering
Just who would I have been
To be the one attached
At all time to your hip?
Forget the things we swore we meant.

2008-04-17T13:52:00.000-07:00

Blame.

Arabic:	يَلوم، يَنْتَقِد
Chinese (Simplified):	责备
Chinese (Traditional):	責備
Czech:	vyčítat
Danish:	bebrejde; klandre
Dutch:	kwalijk nemen
Estonian:	etteheiteid tegema
Finnish:	moittia
French:	reprocher (qqch. à qqn)
German:	tadeln
Greek:	ψέγω, κατηγορώ
Hungarian:	okol
Icelandic:	ásaka
Indonesian:	menyalahkan
Italian:	biasimare

Japanese:	非難する
Korean:	비난하다
Latvian:	vainot
Lithuanian:	priekaištauti
Norwegian:	klandre, bebreide
Polish:	potępiać
Portuguese (Brazil):	censurar
Portuguese (Portugal):	censurar
Romanian:	a reproşa (cuiva ceva)
Russian:	винить
Slovak:	vyčítať
Slovenian:	očitati
Spanish:	reprochar (algo a alguien)
Swedish:	klandra, förebrå
Turkish:	suçlamak

30 ways to say it.
But the meaning stays the same.
If you dont know me.
dont judge me.

2008-04-16T16:23:00.000-07:00

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I hate you. for everything you have become.

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2008-04-16T16:22:00.000-07:00

She say it's cold outside and she hands me my raincoat
She's always worried about things like that
She says it's all gonna end and it might as well be my fault
And she only sleeps when it's raining
And she screams and her voice is straining

She says baby
It's 3 am I must be lonely
When she says baby
Well I can't help but be scared of it all sometimes
Says the rain's gonna wash away I believe it

She's got a little bit of something, God it's better than nothing
And in her color portrait world she believes that she's got it all
She swears the moon don't hang quite as high as it used to
And she only sleeps when it's raining
And she screams and her voice is straining

She believes that life is made up of all that you're used to
And the clock on the wall has been stuck at three for days, and days
She thinks that happiness is a mat that sits on her doorway
But outside it's stopped raining

2008-04-15T16:36:00.000-07:00

Send away for a priceless gift
One not subtle, one not on the list
Send away for a perfect world
One not simply, so absurd
In these times of doing what you're told
You keep these feelings, no one knows
What ever happened to the young man's heart
Swallowed by pain, as he slowly fell apart

And I'm staring down the barrel of a 45,
Swimming through the ashes of another life
No real reason to accept the way things have changed
Staring down the barrel of a 45

Send a message to the unborn child
Keep your eyes open for a while
In a box high up on the shelf, left for you, no one else
There's a piece of a puzzle known as life
Wrapped in guilt, sealed up tight

What ever happened to the young man's heart
Swallowed by pain, as he slowly fell apart

Everyone's pointing their fingers
Always condemning me
And nobody knows what I believe
I believe

2008-04-15T16:14:00.000-07:00

ingratiating fact

Life,
it has its ups and downs.
at times, the ups may seem so
rare,
that it breaks you down,
shattering you into so many
million pieces.
on the other hand, the downs just keep coming down.

out of 6.6 billion people living on this earth,
what can we ask for other than
hope.
it may seem that chances are slim.
but to close an eye and open the other,
we cant help but pray
that,
tomorrow will be a better day,
where all worries and unhappiness
passes.

with that very little hope.
that chance we take,
out of probabilities and percentages,
greats your soul and also
your ego.
with dismay or
acceptance.
Perseverance and patients,
we bid to the unlikely results.
But
we still
Hope.

then comes the daunting past.
circling around,
making fact of a wrong.
never ending,
never fading.
it can never be solve,
neither settle.
Hopes rest upon
the guilt.
Easing the pain,
but never curing it.

baring the fact,
each day we wake up,
looking into the mirror,
telling ourselves.
let yesterday be.

so
looking out into the bright blue day,
that all dark,
lighted up night.
where prayers are heard,
and some are not.
we go on in life the next day,
knowing and praying,
making believe that
a new day,
is going to be
a better day.

Hope.

2008-04-14T16:26:00.000-07:00

We're so similar, and yet different in so many ways

2008-04-14T16:06:00.000-07:00

If you just walked away

What could I really say?

Would it matter anyways?

Would it change how you feel?

I am the mess you chose

The closet you can not close

The devil in you I suppose

Cause the wounds never heal

But everything changes if I could

turn back the years, if you could

learn to forgive me then I could

learn to feel

Sometimes the things

I sayin moments of disarray

succumbing to the games we play

to make sure that it's real

But everything changes if I could

turn back the years, if you could

learn to forgive me then I could

learn to feel

When it's just me and you

who knows what we could do

if we can just make it through

the toughest part of the day

Everything changes if I could

turn back the years if you could

learn to forgive me then I could

learn how to feel, then we could

stay here together and we could

conquer the world if we could

say that forever is

more then just a word

If you just walked away

What could I really say?

Would it matter anyway?

It wouldn't change how you feel?

2008-01-27T19:03:00.000-08:00

"In this country, you gotta make the money first. Then when you get the money, you get the power. Then when you get the power, then you get the women. "

Tony Montana - Scarface 1983

How true.

100,000 here i come.

2007-11-14T15:22:00.000-08:00

2007-10-06T13:44:00.000-07:00

Klang favoured by investors from China :
Other News & ViewsCompiled by PHILADELPHIA NAIR, BEH YUEN HUI AND A. RAMAN

KLANG is fast becoming a major transit point for China products in Asia, reported Sin Chew Daily.

The town, because of its strategic location near Port Klang, KL International Airport and Kuala Lumpur, appears to have found favour with many Chinese investors.

It is learnt that apart from China, investors from other countries are also interested in making Klang a transit point for their goods.

Klang Municipal Council councillor Datuk Song Kee Chai said hundreds of investors from China had rented about 200 shoplots in strategic locations to set up office.

He said the areas included Jalan Meru, Port Klang and Pulau Indah.

This was the first time the town had received a huge group of investors from China, which could also generate economic growth in Klang, he said.

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2007/10/6/nation/19096304&sec=nation

2007-10-05T16:06:00.000-07:00

2007-10-04T16:16:00.000-07:00

2007-09-25T02:07:00.000-07:00

2007-09-20T16:08:00.000-07:00

hi everyone, i have safely arrived in london. sorry bout the late update. hehe. will upload photos soon. take care everyone ;)

2007-09-05T07:50:00.000-07:00

too often,
the one thing that you want the most,
is the one thing you can’t have,

desire leaves us heartbroken,
it wears us out.
desire can wreck your life,

but,
as tough as wanting something can be,
the people who hurt the most,
are those who don’t know what they want.

2007-08-28T11:02:00.000-07:00

U, self-invitation into matters which exerts ur common knowledge which u think u know and have “experience”, pathetic.

U, may "think" that u're perfect in so many ways, in what u are able to get and receive what u dont work for with ur bare hands, typical.

U, "experience" which u commonly speak of, worthless.

U, self opinions which u constantly create about others, even those dear to u, is skeptical, unthoughtful.

U, dumped and left, feeds on others with innocence and clarity, just to hide ur flaws and think that they may not notice, phony.

U, the fact of being "straight-forward" is just to openly criticize another, purposely.

U, centered among ppl who u think may not be as "good" as u, just to out shine, narcissistically.

U, defensively react when ppl know the truth, grandiose.

U, will know the microscopic feeling one day when ppl constantly feed on ur conscious, priceless.

U, damn u.

THANKS ELLE.

2007-08-18T08:46:00.000-07:00

2007-08-06T08:05:00.000-07:00

Wish List
1. Tornado Storm II Foosball Table
2. Microsoft XBox 360
3. TAG Heuer Link Calibre 16 Automatic Chronograph Watch
4. ALDO Leather Wallet (acquired)
5. Oakley POLARIZED JULIET® Sun Glasses
6. Hammer Black Widow Bowling Ball
7. Paul Smith Coloured Ties
8. Black Zara Codroy Trench Coat
9. Apple Iphone
10. Lenovo (IBM) ThinkPad X61 Tablet PC
11. Ang Pows in English Sterling
12. High Tea, Renaissance Hotel KL
13. Dinner, Shang Palace, Shangri-La KL
14. Adidas T-MAC 6 Low Basketball Shoes (acquired)
15. Crumpler MacBook School Hymn 13" Black Laptop Case
16. XZQT Solo Leisure Chair
17. Calvin Klein IN2U Perfume (acquired)
18. World Peace ;)

Disclaimer : This list and all its contents as listed above, are items which i wish to attain or own in the near future. Please do not label me as brand cautious or spoiled in any way, just because i am able to acquire or own any of the above either from gifts or purchased with one's own hard earned money. Thank You. Cheers~ ;)

2007-08-04T10:34:00.000-07:00

What men do after sex?

2% eat;

3% smoke cigarettes;

4% take ashower;

5% go to sleep

and

86% get upand go back home to their wives.

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Why is your penis better than a creditcard?

(a) Once spent it recharges itself.

(b) It is accepted worldwide.

===================================

LITTLE GIRL: Mommy, I just foundout that ourneighbour's sonhas a penis like a peanut!

MUM: You mean it'ssmall?

LITTLE GIRL: No it's salty!!!

===================================

A man was carrying 3 babies in atrain.

The lady sitting next to him asked:Are they your babies?

MAN: No, I work in a condom factoryand these are customer COMPLAINTS.

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Women top 5 lies: from the whitestdown

5. I am a virgin.

4. It is so big.

3. I can't do that to my bestfriend.

2. I won't gain weight aftermarriage

1. I am coming! I am coming!!!

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A guy goes up to a girl in a bar andsays: You want to play magic.

Shesays: What is that?

He says: We goHome, screw, and then you disappear.

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What is the closest thing to a woman'speriod?

Your SALARY... It comes once a month,lasts 4 or 5 days,

and if it doesn'tcome, you are F*CKED!!!

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Teacher asked: Which part of the bodygoes to heaven first?

A Kid replied : The legs...becauseeverynight I see my mum's legs up highand

screaming "OH GOD! I'M COMING".

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Teacher: Why did you bring your cat toschool?

Pupil : Because I heard my sister's

boyfriend say, "TONIGHT I WILL EATYOUR PUSSY".

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What's the difference between a panty and a stage curtain?

Answer : When you pull down the stagecurtain, show is over,

but when youpull down the PANTY... IT'S SHOWTIME.

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AGES OF VAGINA:

16 TO 19 BRAND NEW.

20 TO 28 SLIGHTLY USED

29 TO 36 SECOND HAND

37 TO 45 SUBJECT TO REPAIR

46 TO 55 FOR LUBRICATION

56 TO 60 TOTAL WRECK

61 TO 70 CLOSED FORRENOVATION!!!!!!!

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MUM: Didn't I tell you if a strangertouches your breast say "DON'T".

Andif he touches your pussy say STOP!

GIRL : But mum, he touched both,

so I told him DON'T STOP!!!!"

2007-07-29T05:44:00.000-07:00

You're standing thereNot knowing which road to takeNot knowing who to turn to for helpYou are the only one who can make this choiceYour future lies in your handsDo you choose the paththat everyone wants you tojust so to please everyoneOr do you choosethe path where you fit inthe path you know is wrongBut you just want people to like youYou know what you are gettinginvolved But maybe what you don't knowis once people go down that roadthey rarely come backThat life takes over themThey can't stop itThey know they are in deepToo deepthey can't get outThey are being dragged underBut they are the only ones who canget themselves out of itYou chooseYou take the pathyou feel is rightBut make sure youcan handlethe consequences

2007-07-10T10:35:00.000-07:00

One rule is "never be embarrassed". Embarrassment shows weakness. It's okay to show emotions , but not weakness. Let those awkward moments pass you by like they're nothing but another era of your life. Some of the coolest people are cool because they laugh off embarrasments and act like nothing happened. Chill out, because people do take cues from what you show. If you are laughing at yourself, people will laugh with you. If you are embarrassed, people will laugh at you. (Extra Comment: It's not necessarily bad to be embarrassed - it may happen at some point whether you like it or not. But the way you handle it can be even more important than what happens. Accept whatever happened, focus on how to avoid it, and forgive and forget. It will happen to everyone in time. Either way, you learned something for yourself.)

2007-07-08T09:59:00.001-07:00

And even though the moment passed me by
I still can't turn away
Cause all the dreams you never thought you'd lose
Got tossed along the way
And letters that you never meant to send
Get lost or thrown away

And now we're grown up orphans
That never knew their names
We don't belong to no one
That's a shame
But if you could hide beside me
Maybe for a while
And I won't tell no one your name

And I won't tell em your name

Scars are souvenirs you never lose
The past is never far
Did you lose yourself somewhere out there
Did you get to be a star
And don't it make you sad to know that life
Is more than who we are

You grew up way too fast
And now there's nothing to believe
And reruns all become our history
A tired song keeps playing on a tired radio
And I won't tell no one your name
And I won't tell em your name

I think about you all the time
But I don't need the same
It's lonely where you are come back down
And I won't tell em your name

2007-06-30T12:18:00.000-07:00

WHITE WOMEN:

First date:
-You get to kiss her goodnight.
Second date:
-You get to grope all over and make out a bit.
Third date:
-You get to have sex but only in the missionary position.

IRISH WOMEN:

First Date:
-You both get blind drunk and have sex.
Second Date:
-You both get blind drunk and have sex.
20th Anniversary:
-You both get blind drunk and have sex.

ITALIAN WOMEN:

First Date:
-You take her to a play and an expensive restaurant.
Second Date:
-You meet her parents and her Mom makes spaghetti & meatballs.
Third Date:
-You have sex, she wants to marry you & insists on a 3-carat ring.
5th Anniversary:
-You already have 5 kids together & hate the thought of having sex.
6th Anniversary:
-You find yourself a Mistress.

CHINESE WOMEN:

First date:
-You get to buy her an expensive dinner but nothing happens.
Second date:
-You buy her an even more expensive dinner. Nothing happens again.
Third date:
-You don't even get to the third date and you've already realized nothing
is ever going to happen.

INDIAN WOMEN:

First date:
-Meet her parents.
Second date:
-Set the date of the wedding.
Third date:
-Wedding night.

BLACK WOMEN:

First Date:
-You get to buy her a real expensive dinner.
Second Date:
-You get to buy her and her girlfriends a real expensive dinner.
Third Date:
-You get to pay her rent.
Tenth Date:
-She's pregnant by someone other than you.

MEXICAN WOMEN:

First Date:
-You buy her an expensive dinner, get drunk on Tequila, and have sex in
the back of her car.
Second Date:
-She's pregnant.
Third Date:
-She moves in. One week later, her mother, father, his girlfriend, her
two sisters, her brother, all of their kids, her grandma, her father's
girlfriend's mother, her two cousins, her sister's boyfriend and his
three kids move in and you live on rice and beans for the rest of your
life in your home that used to be nice, but now looks like a home along
the Tijuana strip.

ARAB WOMEN:

First Date:
-Mother, Father, Brothers, Sisters, Cousins, Aunts, Uncles, Friends
and entire Arab community finds out.
Second Date:
-Guy is shot dead.
No third date!!!

LEBANESE WOMEN:

First Date:
-You will have to spend all your money to impress
Second Date:
-You will take a loan to keep the image
Third Date :
-You are broke, she finds someone wealthier

2007-06-20T08:51:00.000-07:00

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I’m missing you and I’m wishing you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know; so now I’m all alone

Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn’t give me a chance
With you not around it’s a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they keep runnin’ down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I fine it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you

Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You gotta be feeling crazy
How can you walk away
(When) Everything stays the same
I just can’t do it baby

What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is and it just ain’t like that
Why can’t you look at me?
You’re still in love with me
Don’t leave me crying

Baby why can’t we just start all over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But you’re telling me it won’t be enough

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I fine it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you’re keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it’s the last thing I do

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I fine it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you
I’ll be waiting …

but not everything is about you..

2007-06-03T06:55:00.000-07:00

I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.

I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.

The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love, remains true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.

So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.

Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.

Oh, well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
I said these places and these faces are getting old.
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.

2007-05-26T09:45:00.000-07:00

2007-05-12T12:31:00.000-07:00

2007-05-12T12:04:00.000-07:00

i understand now
thanks ;)
take care
&
i'll see u in the future

2007-05-10T09:17:00.000-07:00

The perfect words never crossed my mind,
'cause there was nothing in there but you,
I felt every ounce of me screaming out,
But the sound was trapped deep in me,
All I wanted just sped right past me,
While I was rooted fast to the earth,
I could be stuck here for a thousand years,
Without your arms to drag me out,

There you are standing right in front of me
All this fear falls away to leave me naked,
Hold me close cause I need you to guide me to safety

No I don't want to wait forever

In the confusion and the aftermath,
You are my signal fire,
The only resolution and the only joy,
Is the faint spark of forgiveness in your eyes,

There you are standing right in front of me
All this fear falls away to leave me naked,
Hold me close cause I need you to guide me to safety,

There you are standing right in front of me
All this fear falls away to leave me naked,
Hold me close cause I need you to guide me to safety,

No I don't want to wait forever

2007-05-01T09:27:00.000-07:00

Me and you
Setting in a honeymoon
If I woke up next to you
If I woke up next to you

2007-05-01T08:16:00.000-07:00

2007-04-23T10:13:00.000-07:00

Get up, get up, get up, get up,
lift your head
Come on, come on, get up out of bed
Today's the day you hold the world with your song
Go now, go now, go now, help escalate
Angels come down, help with this parade
To hear your voice ring out
Come on and shout it
Let your song be heard

This is the time
This is the day that we've been waiting for
All the world will stop to watch you shine

Hey now, hey now, hey now, hey now sing your hymn
This is the new national anthem
We will all stand on guard to let you be heard
Let go, let go, let go all the cannons
How beautiful this world has become
Now everyone will see what I believe
That these words should be sung

This is the time
This is the day that we've been waiting for
All the world will stop to watch you shine
This is the time
This is the day that we've been waiting for
All the world believes that you will shine

And if you fall
And if you fall
And if you trust then
Yes it will come true

Hey, hey
Yeah!

This is the time
This is the day that we've been waiting for
All the world will stop to watch you shine
This is the time
This is the day that we've been waiting for
When all the world will stop to watch you shine

2007-04-23T09:31:00.000-07:00

Tourism Malaysia shoot 07'
Photos Courtesy of Cynthia ;)

2007-04-20T12:57:00.000-07:00

Girl im in love with you
This ain't the honeymoon
Past the infatuation phase
Right in the thick of love
At times we get sick of love
It seems like we argue everyday

I know i misbehaved
And you made your mistakes
And we both got room left to grow
And though love sometimes hurts
I still put you first
And we'll make this thing work
But I think we should take it slow

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow

This ain't a movie no
No fairy tale conclusion ya'll
It gets more confusing everyday
Sometimes it's heaven sent
We head back to hell again
We kiss and we make up on the way

I hang up you call
We rise and we fall
And we feel just like walking away
But as our love advances
We take second chances
Though it's not a fantasy
I Still want you to stay

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow

Take it slow
Maybe we'll live and learn
Maybe we'll crash and burn
Maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave,
maybe you'll return
Maybe you'll never find
Maybe we won't survive
But maybe we'll grow
You never know baby youuuu and I

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Heyyy)
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow

2007-04-20T12:48:00.000-07:00

2007-04-02T10:36:00.000-07:00

I am finding out that maybe I was wrong
That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone

Stay with me, this is what I need, please?

Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?

I am nothing now and it's been so long
Since I've heard the sound, the sound of my only hope

This time I will be listening.

Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
This heart, it beats, beats for only you

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is your's

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is your's
(My heart, it beats for you)

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
(It beats, beats for only you. My heart is your's)
My heart, my heart is your's
(Please don't go now, Please don't fade away)
My heart, my heart is your's
(Please don't go now, Please don't fade away)
My heart is your's
My heart is your's
(Please don't go now, Please don't fade away)
My heart is your's
My heart is...

2007-04-02T09:20:00.000-07:00

2007-03-18T08:41:00.000-07:00

From the moment I saw you
From the moment I looked into your eyes
There was something about you I knew, I knew
That you were once in a lifetime
A treasure near impossible to find
And I know how lucky I am to have you

Cause I've seen rainbows that could take your breath away
The beauty of the setting sun, on any given day
And when it comes to shooting stars I have seen a few
But I've never seen anything as beautiful as you

I can't believe that I have you
I can't believe that you're here in my arms
I've been waiting a life time for you, for you
And I've dreamed about you
Pictured in my mind who I would see
But I never imagined just how beautiful you'd be

Cause I've seen rainbows that could take your breath away
(take your breath away)
The beauty of the setting sun, on any given day (any given day)
And when it comes to shooting stars I have seen a few
But I've never seen anything as beautiful as you

I've seen rainbows that could take your breath away
(take your breath away)
The beauty of the setting sun, on any given day
And when it comes to shooting stars I have seen a few
But I've never seen anything as beautiful
But I've never seen anything as beautiful as you

From the moment I saw you
From the moment I looked into your eyes

2007-02-14T06:49:00.000-08:00

2007-02-08T10:34:00.000-08:00

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her skies

I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you...

2007-02-05T09:10:00.000-08:00

I’m late. I’m sorry. And yes, it was always too good to be true. Thank you.

I look back. Not knowing how to feel. But it was always worth it I told myself.

But it was always too good to be true. There were tales, unwritten truth.

But it was genuine. When I first met you. It was sweet. The mere 5 minutes of meeting.

But it was lost. In the beginning. The true feelings were unknown. Which later blossomed to be a rekindled liking?

But it was neglected. To have paid more attention to how you really felt. All the pressure that you were under.

But it was hard. Just like a locked up book. You took, and swallowed the key to the truth.

But it was different. You tried. And I never did notice. How much pain you had in you.

But it was unclear. That your feelings you didn’t want to share. It was ok.

But it was regrettable. That each day. I sit and ponder. Blaming myself for forsaking you.

But it was unfair. To be the only one. To have to guess all the riddles that you made.

But it doesn't really matter now doesn't it. You have another chance. To do it all over again.

But it really is good. To be able to leave all the pain and sorrow behind. And start a brand new life.

But given the chance. Honestly.

Would you do it all over again?

Would it have made a difference? If it was different?

Would you have known how'd it really feels?

Do you ever read my callings at all?

2007-02-05T09:04:00.000-08:00

Now I’m right where I want to be
Losing track of time
But I wish that it was still last night
You look like you’re in another world
But I can read your mind
How can you be so far away
Lying by my side
When I go away I’ll miss you
And I will be thinking of you
Every night and day just ...

Promise me you’ll wait for me
’cos I’ll be saving all my love for you
And I will be home soon
Promise me you’ll wait for me
I need to know you feel the same way too
And I’ll be home, I’ll be home soon

When I go away I’ll miss you
And I will be thinking of you
Every night and day just ...

Promise me you’ll wait for me
’cos I’ll be saving all my love for you
And I will be home soon
Promise me you’ll wait for me
I need to know you feel the same way too
And I’ll be home, I’ll be home soon

"Promise me you’ll wait for me
cos I’ll be saving all my love for you
And I will be home soon
Promise me you’ll wait for me
I need to know you feel the same way too
And I’ll be home, I’ll be home soon"

2007-01-21T08:06:00.000-08:00

I gave a letter to the postman,
He put it his sack.
Bright in early next morning,
He brought my letter back.

She wrote upon it:
Return to sender, address unknown.
No such number, no such zone.
We had a quarrel, a lovers spat
I write Im sorry but my letter keeps coming back.

So then I dropped it in the mailbox
And sent it special d.
Bright in early next morning
It came right back to me.

She wrote upon it:
Return to sender, address unknown.
No such person, no such so.

This time Im gonna take it myself
And put it right in her hand.
And if it comes back the very next day
Then Ill understand - the writing on it

Return to sender, address unknown.
No such number, no such zone.

not even a chance?

HaVe i tOld u?

2007-01-21T06:43:00.000-08:00

who I really am. i am a Leo. if u check horoscopes, most probably they'd tell u how i generally am. bt i'd like to share who i really am with u, tat is if u bother to read.

1. i was born with "atrial septal defect", in other words known as hole-in-the-heart. i had my operation when i was 3. and now i am "fully-functional" just like any ordinary person.

2. i am from a family of six. dad, mom, and 3 other siblings, one's a doctor, one graduated from business school and another is in aussie doing COM science. i am "reading" law.

3. i live in klang. no, it’s not in another state and yes, if u knew that klang is actually "Bandar diRaja Selangor".

4. i play lotsa sports, ok, maybe not that much. my passion is mostly towards basketball. not really good at it to be honest. but its the only sport tat lets me lose the fats.

5. i think horoscopes are good characteristic compasses. they are quite accurate at times. generally, i think i am 50% of the good and 100% of the bad. lets do the good part 1st.

5.1 Ambitious. i am ambitious. really. i have been planning to do law since. uh. standard 5? yea. funny eh? uhm. apart from basic ambitions, i just want to settle stuff like there and then. i don’t actually plan in terms of what i want to do in the future. i just follow the flow.

5.2 Creative. i won’t say i am. but one thing for sure, i like things to be simple. colour, design. anything which is plain. yes, i am the "dead" kinda person.

5.3 Loyal. i think lotsa ppl are gona laugh to this section, in forms of disagreement. bt i am who i am. yea, ok, i am not loyal.

5.4 Warmhearted. i think i am. definitely not the stone cold type of person. no matter how much i hate. i tend to forget bout it. or at least i try to. i try to be friendly, yes, without other intentions. i like to make friends. or help ppl, maybe u might disagree, maybe u felt like i was never there, bt i am, always there. i care.

5.5 Generous. i think i am. not to brag or what not, money, is not a big issue. i will lend out a helping hand when in need. i don't mind helping as long as u're genuine enough. of course, everyone draws a limit sumwhere.

5.6 Loving. i don’t knw myself. u'd need to ask around. bt i think i'm not tat loving. if i was. things would be different.

6. for the bad stuff! woo-hoooo...

6.1 intolerant. totally not at all. as i mention earlier. i try. bt at times, ok, most of the time, i just can’t tolerate. bt it depends on the frequency of the annoyance. i am patient. bt i can tolerate repeats. sorry, if i offended u in any way. cheers~

6.2 Egotistical. i am, totally. like every other "man". from time to time, i learn to let go. and take the blows. like how i deserve it.

6.3 Fears ridicule. i am. bt then again. who likes to make a fool of themselves? and. uh. i think i set my standards kind high sumtimes. in ways, i am very. uh. vain and status conscious. bt i do it "professionally", to be presentable. i believe, to be respected, u need to respect others 1st.

6.4 Bossy. i am. i like to be a leader i mean. bt i am only like tat in my own field, with things which either i know or am very good at. i don’t lead in stuff which i can’t do. when i happen to be a leader in sumthing, i don’t think i have never not been able to settle that sumthing. but with help of course.

6.5 interfering. i am. jeng jeng jeng. u see. its funny. when u care, they say its too much. when u don’t, they say u don’t care. aih. maybe its in how i present it i guess. must be doing it all wrong. help?

to be continued...

2007-01-15T07:03:00.000-08:00

Your EQ is 153

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

thank u thank u..i've "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil ok..plz..

cheers~ ;)

2007-01-06T10:24:00.000-08:00

i have a. project. its called. runaway.

u see. it ain't tat hard. to run. but can u always. get away?

we're always. running. from everything. tat life. has to offer.

sometimes. we don't. even stop. to look. back.

we always think. tat its okay. to just keep running. and not look back.

at what we have left. behind. people. memories. regrets. wishes.

every new year. we make tat resolution.

that new one we make every year. to be good. more caring. hardworking. loving.

to get what we always longed for.

for me. it made no difference. whether the resolution was made. or not.

i only wished. most of the time. for forgiveness.

of the things. tat i've done. said. and failed to do.

i failed. in loving. caring. and. providing.

miserably. it was. regretful. and. painful.

it was too good. to be true. i was the one. to let go.

pushing. and blaming. leaving. with soar.

it always felt good. but yet. always neglected.

i guess. the empty places. were the reason.

the silence. filled in. the change. had been realised.

bt. was it. already time?

was. there a chance. still. which. was thrown away.

please. it hurts.

could u. show me.

the exit.

please.

2006-12-20T07:03:00.000-08:00

people dont care less, they just don't show how they really feel most of the time and, the fact they actually care more than u'll ever know. everyone is promiscuous in nature, whether u know it or not, it doesn't matter as long as u know who is really the one u want whole-ly rather than only physically. you can never forget, u can only choose not to be reminded, forgetting is abandoning your feelings. doesnt matter only happens when it didnt matter in the first place, unless heartless, everyone hurts in their own ways, but same ways with one another.

holding on is what makes everything go on, as usual, if it doesnt kill u, it only makes u stronger.jealousy, hurt, and distrust are emotions, unavoidable ones, but then again, how sure are you that the other doesnt feel it too in the reversed scenario. songs, sounds, or smells they are called memories, which will always be unforgettable, sum maybe of bad experiences which u might hav had, bt always remember what happy times u had rather than regretting those u didnt have.temptation, like adam and eve, was the 1st expression of humans, it maybe bad at times, but can u imagine how adam and eve felt when they had their 1st taste of the apple?

generous and giving, vile and self-centered, i guess, everyone is different, where's the fun when everyone is the same.everyone judges everyone, tats how it works, if not why do the have miss world.its hard nowadays, whether to 'believe' what u hear or wt u see, most of the time, hearing IS believing.2nd best, is already the best u can get, cause no one will ever be the best, no one is perfect, tats why we choose to give and take.we never stop caring, at times, we just choose to neglect.

"...and hide away ur feelings it was once said, let the bitter sweet, be an experience, a memory, that u will keep forever and evermore. never forgotten, only not remembered..."

2006-11-30T18:51:00.000-08:00

wAiting..

2006-09-04T07:16:00.000-07:00

hey! so hws evryone? good i hope? haha..i'm fine btw ;)i passed..nt wf very good grades..bt..u knw..i passed :)all the last minute studying, wf foos-ing at the same time :) late nites, the frequent change of studying vanues cafes, fast food restaurants..hell..it all payed off :)

gona be moving on to 2nd year a week or 2..kinda soon eh? well..its really been hell of a year..highlights..uh..food! "nasi lemak pak mak cik" , ikan bakar @ HP, tom yam @ UOA & aLi mAJu! events! THE lAw BaLl, debates, moOtIng, futsul! pArties! biRtHdays! trIps! singapore! redanG! yea..msg in the bottle..haha..assignments! "to copy from 1 is Plagiarising, to copy from many is..RESEARChING!" ;) haha..wt a year eh?

its time nw..those who r goin, R goin..congrats to u all ppl..i feel very proud n happy for u all..its been nice to have been able to be clsmates with u all..its been a real pleasure :) hope ja'all gona do well over there! remem to call or even email if possible when u can :)

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waiting..i have been..waiting..is it too late nw? to say the sorries, and all the sob stories..its was wrong..it was hard..bt it happened..n u reminded me..it doesnt matter..hw it turns out to be..as long..as..there'll be u n me..is there anymore? or just the silence u still intend to roar..verbally..no words have been said..bt the emotions that still floats in your head..everytime u look around..u wonder..hw it might hav been..u do..u just hide it all the time..thinking it doesnt matter..and then the pain hits n stings..it rings..all the feelings..where u combust at corner of soul..burning along evrything around u..which u intent to hide..it burns..and the ashes are blown..bt it doesnt leave..it nvr does..its burn becomes a seal..one u will always look at..the one which will always be soo obvious..its hard..evrything is..ntg isnt easy though..which words makes every thought so..bt u're escaping..u're running..when all u want is evrything..bt u juz left them hanging..and then u think u knw evrything tat u're doin..bt in reality u dont..evry well planned plan will fall..at your ego..it crumbles..it turns into dust..tats when u trust..or be trusted n for so-ed..waiting..u tell me..shall i be the one?

u remind me. of evrything. we could be.

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Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aerorplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

Micheal Buble
Home

empTy room.

2006-08-10T11:23:00.000-07:00

its all done nw..hw to describe hw it feels..hmm..is it freedom? or..juz a bunch of frustration "air" being let out, making it much easier to breath? u see, its never hard to explain hw u feel when its all over. u feel like crying. mayb u cried because u felt sad, or the tears might have also been happy ones. isnt it funny? the ironicity of the feeling that it was better to had done so then to be sitting down here nw taiping this post and thinking wt it might hav been, all the should havs and shouldnt havs are seperated by such a fine line. but nvr the less, u'll hav regrets, everyone does. it comes natural, u cant always be perfect, or u cant always comply to ppl's needs, it has always n will always be like that, its like noah's ark, the animals are like all the problems, and ur ark which is urself, which is like, ntg but a small little kancil.so yea, in short, no one's perfect.haih..do u think evrything's gona be ok?

ahaha <--- insanity?
huahuahua <--- with intention?
kekeke <--- attempt?
kakaka <--- brazil player, kaka's ka(leg in hokkien)?

wakakakakaka <--- chill out ;)

cheers~

i tRy.

2006-07-13T07:29:00.000-07:00

i wonder,

i wonder do u wonder too.

about hw the other wonders.

wonder hw she/he's doin.

wonder about wt's goin on in the other's life.

wonder whether the other wonders bout wt he/she thinks.

i think,

i think u dont think anymore.

no longer thinking bout the other.

thinking bout wt it miGht have been,

if the thinking didnt start thinking in the first place.

so, do u still guess?

i guess,

guess it no longer matters.

guess its time to leave.

guessing why is it so hard,

to guess wt the other wonders n thinks,

or miss?

i miss,

miss those times.

miss those far out of reach.

missing the feeling,

of missing the one u miss,

tat's always missing.

to wonder,

and think,

to guess,

of who i miss.

u.

cheers~

jè vöÙs mÃnquÉ, n'êst-cé pÅs ?

2006-06-20T07:25:00.000-07:00

Tout seul
Tu t'en iras tout seul
Coeur ouvert
A l'univers
Poursuis ta quête
Sans regarder derrière
N'attends pas
Que le jour
Se lève

Suis ton étoile
Va jusqu'où ton rêve t'emporte
Un jour tu le toucheras
Si tu crois, si tu crois, si tu crois
En toi
Suis la lumière
N'éteins pas la flamme que tu portes
Au fond de toi souviens-toi
Que je crois, que je crois, que je crois
En toi

ÇhÈér§É~ ;)

2006-06-18T09:10:00.000-07:00

it doesnt matter
that they once cared
neither do the memories
that u once shared

it doesnt matter
that they were here the other day
it doesnt matter what
you had to say

it doesnt matter about the person
u once knew
it doesnt matter how much
they meant to u

cheers~

Questions womEn ask.

2006-06-18T09:06:00.000-07:00

1. What does it mean when a guy constantly flirts with you but never asks you out.......

A. It means he wants you to try out for the pole vault in his olympics only to never walk down the aisle to get the medal

2. Why do men crave beautiful "model type" women and yet fear them?

A. Men don't fear them, men are smart, we know that if she looks that good she probably skipped home economics and can't cook worth a damn.

3. Why are men afraid of committment?

A. One day a man awoke missing a rib, the next, he was enticed into eating the fruit, the world has been screwed up ever since, and you ask why?

4. Can a man ever be loyal to just one woman?

A. Yes, unfortunately only his mother

5. Is it really a man's world

A. No, we think we run things, but actually the women do, they just let us think we're in control.

6. Why do men wear black at their wedding

A. because we are actually dressed for our funeral, for we are doomed. It should be called the bride and the doomed, instead of the bride and the groom.

7. What's the one thing that turns most men on?

A. The remote on Sunday afternoon

8. How can you tell if you have a good man?

A. If he respects you, treats you as an equal, and puts up with your parents, what more could you ask for.

cheers~ ;)

2006-06-14T09:06:00.000-07:00

oh..n for u,

Moving on is one of the hardest things to do

but each day gets easier

just,

have to follow through

keep a smile on ur face, and laughter in ur heart

and before u know it u'll be on ur way to a new start

u'll never forget the first one to take ur breath away

but u have to know when its no longer worth the stay.

so,

miss that smile, the one u loved

miss that touch, the one u adored

memories will they be always in ur mind,

forever & ever more.

cheers~ ;)

AttiTude..

2006-06-14T08:07:00.000-07:00

attitude, sumthing u use everyday & sumthing u need everyday..i've meet lotsa types of ppl..n trust me..i've seen all sorts of attitudes..the "i dont give a fuck" ones, "lame-ass irresponsible" ones, "happy-go-lucky" ones & etc..sorry if i didnt mention ur attitude..so continuing wf my point..u see..i always wonder..hw are all these attitudes brought up about..is it from the family? or its the person him/her self? i think, its from the person him/herself..bt i'm nt saying tat family doesnt play a role, i knw mine did n still does..so prove me if i'm wrong..bt..i think its u urself tat creates ur own attitude..

i had this fren..he was a bad ass kid in high skool..he joined sum underground gang..n even had his back tatooed..so..his begain to work under his "dai-kos"..day after day..leaving home after all the fights with his parents..all the slacking at skool & fights "in the name of the gang"..one fine day..he "woke up"..n trust me..he scored 6 As' in his form6 UEC exam..n is currently doin law in the NATIONAL UNIVERSITY OF SINGAPORE(i think)..so..i ask u..who formed his attitude to change? u think bout it..& at the same time..do u need a change too?

cheers~ ;)

thank u :)

2006-06-05T06:56:00.000-07:00

To:

A heart filled with love,
A head filled with wisdom,
A hand filled with the hand of someone in need.

I extend:

A heart filled with thankfulness,
A head filled with memories of
A hand that has known love,
not by word but by deed.

Thank you.

&

Cheers~ ;)

2006-05-31T17:31:00.000-07:00

Im Meleth Le, Nîn Meleth

wt a YESTERday...

2006-05-25T08:43:00.000-07:00

wt do u do when it all hits u once?
u keep thinking...
why does it always have to be u...
why the same things keep happening over n over again...
over n over...mayb it juz aint ur day?
mayb...it all happened...for a reason...

ahaha...it doesnt matter ;) cheers~

its all clear nw..

2006-05-20T08:06:00.000-07:00

n it doesnt matter :)

emoooooooooooo

2006-05-20T07:49:00.000-07:00

Knew the signs
Wasn't right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like the fool

So confused, my heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn't see
We were never meant to be

Catch myself from despair
I could drown if I stay here
Keeping busy every day
I know I will be okay

But I was
So confused, my heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn't see
We were never meant to be

So much hurt, so much pain
Takes a while to regain what is lost inside
And I hope that in time, you'll be out of my mind
I'll be over you

But now I'm
So confused, my heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?

Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn't see
We were never meant to be

Out of reach, so far
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see
There's a life out there for me...

Out Of Reach
Gabrielle

u frEe?

2006-05-02T05:04:00.000-07:00

sorry for the late update..been kinda busy last week..ok ok..i was lazy..had lotsa work mah..aih..i manage to stay awake for..uhm..42 hours? not bad rite? ahaha..managed to finish the whole thing but still handed it in half an hour late -_-" aih..i need to drive! yea..in my dreams larh..aih..

when to check out laptops the other day..went into this particular S**y shop @ L*W Y**t plaza..fuh..the salesman atitude to the max man! wtf..it started like this..me walk into the shop, hoping to check out those shit expensive laps which i cant afford..yet..den, this sales dude comes up to me..acts all nice at first..but when i asked about the cost for upgrading a particular feature, he goes like "u pay cash or card?" , "u want to get it today meh? ask only when u want to get it larh" *shows me the f**cked up atitude face* i was like..wtf.."oh its ok, u can shove the lap up ur a*s, cause it stinks as much as ur face..bye~" walks out..wt the hell man..u call this a salesman suppose to have atitude? aih..

on the bright side! went for 2 castings soo far..but still no luck..but hopefully ppl will like..u knw..open 1 eye and close the other N choose me! ahaha..1.5k ok..not a small number..n its kinda fun u knw..when u do this castings..though it may seem like its only a few hours or 1 day the most, there's still lotsa work..gota pose..stand like this, stand like tat..aih..quite stressful at times..but u knw..for the money! gota walk the money talks..u knw wt i' mean? oh..n we're called talents not models quoted ArSy..true true..talents who needs cash T_T

cheers~

tHe FUNNY things that PPL do.. -_-"

2006-04-24T06:16:00.000-07:00

went to use this rest room in sum cafe couple of weeks ago..saw this funny sign just above the loo..quite the funny rite? haha..ok..nw its kinda lame! hav a nice day! :)

pardon me?

2006-04-23T05:33:00.000-07:00

a song for u..

Incubus
Pardon Me

Pardon me while I burst
Pardon me while I burst
A decade ago, I never thought I would be.
A twenty three on the verge of spontaneous combustion. Woe-is-me
But I guess that it comes with the territory.
An ominous landscape of never-ending calamity.
I need you to hear. I need you to see.
That I have had all I can take
And exploding seems like a definite possibility
To me
So Pardon me while I burst into flames.
I've had enough of the world, and its people's mindless games
So Pardon me while I burn, and rise above the flame
Pardon me, pardon me. I'll never be the same.
Not, two days ago I was having a look in a book
And I saw a picture of a guy fried up above his knees
I said I can relate
Cause lately I've been thinking of combustication as a welcomed vacation from.
The burdens of the planet earth, like gravity, hypocrisy, and the perils of being in 3-D...
And thinking so much differently.
Pardon me while I burst into flames.
I've had enough of the world, and it's people's mindless games
Pardon me while I burn, and rise above the flame
Pardon me, pardon me. I'll never be the same.
Never be the same...yeah.
Pardon me while I burst into flames.
Pardon me, pardon me, pardon me.
So pardon me while I burst into flames.
I've had enough of the world, and it's people's mindless games
So pardon me while I burn, and rise above the flame
Pardon me, pardon me. I'll never be the same.
Pardon me, never be the same. Yeah